Do you know how worthy you are of being loved?
That you, just as you are now, are worthy of receiving love?
For those listening from an unhealed heart, this Truth can feel uncomfortable and even ring untrue as our pain and hurt projects outward and shadows our perception.
If that is your reaction, however slight it might be, take comfort in knowing there will come a time when you have worked through enough of your healing that you can say confidently, ‘I am worthy of being truly loved’ and feel no resistance within yourself. Whether or not you have fully embodied this Truth yet is irrelevant as it still remains True, a Universal Constant, you ARE worthy of Love by the mere act of your existence in this physical world.
You incarnated with a specific purpose, a specific intent, with an inner Knowing that guides and pushes you to grow, learn, expand and experience all that you can in this physical reality – spurring your soul growth to higher and higher frequencies of Love.
You are a separate being and yet whole – a fragment of Source and yet complete, a singularity in physical space-time that allows this Force of creation to experience the 3rd dimension through you as a unique and beautiful facet on an endless sea of fractal jewels. You are here to participate in the grand experiment of duality and free-will. To see if you can overcome the mass delusion and learn to look past the illusion of separateness. Your purpose is to send back your experiences in a quantum feedback loop to Source for the reason of creative expansion in our Universe. As you learn how to walk the path of Love, you grow and expand further until you become a master over your own darkness and are set free from the bondage of a lower vibrational existence.
You are here to understand that none of this physical stuff really matters while simultaneously coming to realize that ALL of it matters as your mind is bent in new and uncomfortable ways. You discover you’re living in a world of paradoxes and oddities…where up is down and left is right; a place of magick, mystery and synchronicities; where the mystical and sacred bleeds into your physical experience as you come into deep awareness of an existence beyond the veil of your perceived reality. Suddenly the impossible seems very possible as your imagination is sparked again – your inner child leaping for joy within you as you find yourself once more tapped into the Creative Flow of the Universe. Breaking free from the chains of your apathy, delusion and self-limiting beliefs, you rise up from the ashes of your old self and realize you now see the world quite differently – your mind stretched to a new awareness, never to be the same again.
As we continue to learn, heal and grow, we master how to feel into this quantum field and the collective consciousness, we master how to align and manifest from the unlimited abundance of the universe, we master how to get into resonance with and operate from higher frequencies of love, compassion and forgiveness. We become adept at sitting in this place of contemplation, feeling and connection and we discover that this is where we find the boundless Source of Love and Truth that brings peace into our being – into our personal reality. This place of resonance is not where we have to prove our worth, but where our worth is REVEALED to us. A gift of higher awareness bestowed upon those brave enough to seek within themselves the answers of who they truly are with an open and honest heart.
When we are still healing, we can find that it is truly hard and intense to sit in this contemplative space because feelings of pain, sorrow, regret, shame or fear seem to rise up to the surface screaming for our attention. It is in this place that we must dig deeper and consciously choose to look at these unpleasant feelings from a higher awareness, a higher level of observation and place of non-judgment so we can trace them back to their origin. This often, if not always, takes us back into our early childhood to some deep wounding that profoundly affected our inner worldview. When we are able to switch to the Observer role, this higher perspective, the Truth will illuminate within us and we will see clearly why and how this pain was triggered in our current circumstances. We will observe what is not for our highest good and what we can do in order to release it and heal on a deeper level.
We allow our Higher awareness in this meditative state to guide us in releasing these old emotions, patterns and mindsets by recognizing the unhealthy coping mechanisms we were using to protect ourselves. We do not judge them for having been there, we don’t shame ourselves as we let them go, instead we thank them for trying to protect us and for illuminating greater awareness within us now that we are ready to heal. It is in this contemplative state that we can let them go with Love, shedding some layers of past pain and releasing the chains of fear that had bound our heart unknowingly.
If we don’t send off these past feelings of pain and trauma, these memories, these realizations with Love we find that we really didn’t let them go at all. We might think we are releasing them but find out we are actually ‘letting them go’ with fear, shame, judgment, guilt, or anger instead of Love, non-judgment, compassion and forgiveness. This results in nothing actually being released at all. Instead we discover we inadvertently fed those lower vibrational emotions and reinforced our unhealthy patterns and coping mechanisms by strengthening the neural pathways in our brain surrounding our trauma and pain. This usually happens at a subconscious level, way below our conscious awareness, so unless we are really tuned into our bodies, we can miss the signs altogether.
If you have truly released from a place of Love and non-judgement you will definitely feel a difference in your physical body as the old lower energy releases from your field and breaks off, transmuting into higher frequencies. This new state of being in a higher frequency of Love results in wonderful feelings of peace, joy and happiness that you will definitely notice!
Don’t be disheartened if you have not successfully made it to the other side of your healing yet – it’s a marathon not a sprint! Awareness that you even need to heal from something is the very first step towards actually healing. Be gentle with yourself my beloved, move through the pain at your own pace, resting when needed and taking time out for fun and spontaneity along the way.
Don’t get stuck in your feelings about being victimized or mistreated even if you were the victim and don’t shy away from taking responsibility if needed either. Sometimes we are abused and sometimes we are the abuser, we must acknowledge that as humans we hold within us the capacity for both dark and light, for both immense cruelty and immense compassion.
Contemplate and understand that most people we encounter or have encountered since our birth into this physical world have been those who are or were acting out of their own place of unhealed trauma and self-delusion. Hearts closed off and barricaded from past pain, stumbling about desperately trying to give off the illusion that all is well while subconsciously looking for people, situations and experiences that resonate with their inner childhood wounding, in order to be triggered enough to want to heal.
Be thankful you are in this place of healing and growth, of knowing, of newfound awareness. Be proud of yourself for getting as far as you are now, not everyone is brave enough to heal. You will discover as you continue to tumble down the rabbit hole that you have the power to change your thoughts, your beliefs, your mindset, your patterns of behavior, your physical, mental and emotional health, your DNA, cellular structure and even your intelligence. We live in an age where information and knowledge abound; ignorance is now a choice. Choose to be a seeker of your own inner Truth and allow your heart’s Intelligence to reveal itself to you. Discover how worthy you truly are to receive Love and open your heart to all the Universe has for you.
Take your power back and know that you can choose from here on out to continue growing, evolving and becoming the very best version of yourself – no matter what has happened to you in the past or what you have done in the past. YOU are the author of your story, the director and the star of your movie, the creator of your personal reality and you get to choose in every moment how you will live your life, day by day, hour by hour and minute by minute. Choose consciously, wisely and with Love.