I’m going to talk about how it feels like you’re going crazy when you experience a spiritual awakening. So, no, you are not crazy.
You’re just on the path of awakening, and it’s intent. Okay, so that’s why I created this playlist. It is for the newly awakened, those of you who have just, like, walked out of the Matrix. You have seen beyond the veil of illusion, and you realize that everything you’ve ever thought was true as a fucking lie, right? Your whole world has been shook.
You have chosen to step into the unknown to seek the truth for yourself. And you have stumbled across this video. So, my friend, you are welcome here. And I have made this video collection this playlist in order to help guide you. Okay?
So I have been on my spiritual journey for twelve years, and I have gained quite a lot of wisdom, if I do say so myself during that twelve years. And so I know how incredibly scary, challenging. And just so I understand how incredibly challenging and scary it can be. It is when you wake up to the grand illusion that we are all born into. And I wanted to create this playlist specifically to address those questions that I feel need to be addressed.
Okay? And part of that is, and probably the most important aspect when you first start on your journey is realizing you’re not fucking crazy, okay? Because you feel crazy, and none of your friends, none of your family members know one you fucking know, understand anything that you’re experiencing. They just don’t. So you have to go through this kind of gut wrenching experience as you suddenly see the truth of your experience, you see through people, you see where they are at.
You understand that everybody is trapped in this sort of lower vibrational bullshit that you suddenly have risen above. Right? Because when you experience a spiritual awakening, you are reborn into a higher frequency. Literally, your energy shifts, okay? You shift into a higher version of yourself, and suddenly your consciousness is more aware.
Your nervous system gets an upgrade, and you start to feel sensory information more. So you might experience your giftings, right? When you start to experience your spiritual giftings. So maybe you start getting sensory information, or you start getting downloads of information and you hear voices in your head. Or you feel things from people, or you see things in the physical world.
Like all of those experiences are really scary. If you don’t understand that, it’s just your system got an upgrade book. Don’t be afraid. Don’t be concerned. Just be aware that it’s part of the fucking process, okay?
You basically you have to lose your mind to find it. Okay? Once you get to a certain age, we are so programmed by our cultural beliefs, by our spiritual beliefs, religious beliefs, our familiar ties our culture. When you get to a certain age, you realize that you are just a bunch of narratives. You’re a bunch of programs that have been force fed into your psyche so that you just believe shit just because you believe it.
You don’t really fucking know why you believe it. And that’s why you have broken out of your cage. You broke out of your own prison because you kept questioning the bullshit. You kept questioning the suffering that you keep experiencing. We will keep suffering over and over and over again until we’ve decided we’ve suffered enough.
And when you realize you’ve suffered enough, that is when you break free. That is when you choose to grow. And suddenly you awake and suddenly you wake up. You realize that how you’ve been living your life isn’t fucking working anymore. And when you do that, when you dive deep and you do the introspective work that it takes to have a spiritual awakening, you get an upgrade.
You really, really do. Suddenly you’re getting all of this sensory input in new ways that you didn’t before. And it can really, literally feel like you’re going crazy. Okay? So when you’re experiencing that, where you’re just like, what the fuck was that?
Or what did I just see? Or what just spoke to me? Or what am I feeling right now? And it brings fear because you have some sort of old religious programming or some old cultural programming or society programming or whatever. Just understand that that is where you need to do the work.
Okay? When you first start on your spiritual journey, you’re triggered all the fucking time, all the time, because suddenly you’re feeling the distortion of fear. And when you feel triggered, it’s an opportunity to go within and discover the root cause of that trigger. Okay? And once you get through that, you realize, oh, that’s why I feel that way.
When that person says that, or when I feel that from that person, or when I have a dream like that, or when I experience that in meditation. That’s why I’m having that reaction. Okay, look, guys, I had the first 28 years of my life in organized religion Christianity, specifically that I now label spiritual abuse because of the massive distortions of truth that were embedded literally into my energetic signature since birth. That ship is hard to work through. In fact, there were two distinct aspects of religious distortion that I carried for twelve years.
Twelve years? I knew about it. I was aware of it. I understood the root cause of it, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t let it go.
It was so deeply ingrained that it took twelve years of active work in order to get to the other side of it and not feel triggered when encountering or experiencing certain things surrounding that aspect. Right? So I had a lot of fear towards spirituality in general, the fucked up thing about Christianity, and I can speak to this because I was in it is that every possible Avenue that could lead you to the truth was labeled demonic. Satanic from the devil. It’s just unreal the distortion, the purposeful distortion that there is within the Christian community that just is so afraid.
It makes you so afraid to experience the divine, which is so ironic in so many ways. But it just is what it is. So if you have broken from old spiritual, not spiritual. If you have broken free from religious beliefs, religious programming, hats off to you. Okay, my friend, it takes a lot of courage to walk away from that, especially when it’s been in your family forever.
Okay? It takes a lot of courage, and you’re gonna get massive backlash, just so you know, be prepared. And really, when you’re newly awakened, that’s not the time to share your truth. You’re learning, you’re growing, you’re understanding what the fuck your truth even is. You have a lot of experiences that you’re going to be put through in order to help you grow into your fullness.
Okay? Because once we wake up, that’s just the first step, you guys. It’s literally the first step of the whole process of coming into your own fullness as a divine being, a divine creator, and really taking control of your life in a new way. So allow the process to be what it is. Allow yourself to do the inner work.
Be brave. Be courageous. Understand? You’re not going crazy, my friend. It might feel like it, and you might get trapped into certain trains of thought along your spiritual journey.
It’s all part of the process. Okay? I spent about four years in a conspiracy theory rabbit hole that I have come out of and have seen the resonance of what is true and what is not. And many people get stuck there. Okay?
Many people get stuck in the trap of atheism. I also went through that aspect for about a year where I denounced all things that were spiritual in nature. But I came out the other side of that, knowing that through my own experience, through my own growth and own awareness, that there is a course, a creative force to the universe. And that force is love. By the way, everything that you discover on your spiritual path will bring you back to this one truth, that everything is love, that there is only love.
And if that sounds super hippie, super hokey, super lame or whatever, that’s okay, my friend. You will get there. Just keep speaking. Keep doing the word. Keep pushing forward and understand you’re not crazy.
It’s part of the process. It’s kind of like it’s. It’s part of the process. And right now, you are Alice tumbling through the looking glass, and you’re going to wake up in this new environment that is totally crazy, totally magical, and will rip apart all of the distortion within your frequency if you let it. Okay, so walk in love to the best of your ability.